Email to Heather Evans:
Mon, Jun 8, 2009 at 8:37 PM
Ok- Kelly just kicked us out of villekulla. i'm moving into mindy's house for a few months until my 'new job' comes through. don't suppose you want to come up here and share an apartment with me and aizik? COME ON! it would be so fun! i love you millions and miss you tons. stay tuned...
Email to Heather Evans:
Tue, Jun 9, 2009 at 8:06 PM
man. i'm a little panicky tonight. too much adrenaline in my system. i am SO excited and a little worried; i want to be totally unattached to the outcome (but of course my biggest fear is always that i'll do wrong by aizik!)
even if he does stay with colby- he will be just fine; honestly maybe it's best. why do i think i have to be a better parent than colby anyhow? that's just dumb. what's wrong with saying 'well, shit. i was a rock star for a while there but then i hit a snag. why don't you try some of this parenting stuff while i fix things up?' i feel so self-centered when i realize how many terrible things go on in the world and i worry about my petty circumstances. i just CANNOT imagine my life without that kid and would not be able to live with myself if i let him down. i know it's bound to happen sooner or later. i should do some volunteer work to get some perspective.
